Look, I'll be honest and I'm sorry if what I say will be shocking.
I'm coming back from heart attacks and subsequent open heart surgery. I lost my two best army buddies of 25 years in tragic circumstances, roughly a year ago, a loss I've never been able to fully process. Later last year my wife (we were separated on good terms) died of an aggressive form of cancer within weeks only and when she finally did her last breath in the hospital I finally broke and tried to end my life a day later. In addition my mom died as well some weeks later.
My recovery is nothing short of a miracle, or so all docs tell me. I guess having been very fit all my life helps the matter and if there is something I never have lacked then it's will-power and discipline. I'm also a survivor, literally now too.
I have a long way to go, but I am determined to make the best of my new life 2.0 as I call it.
It's a struggle and I have one very good day, then a good one and then a very bad one. I'm more or less accustomed now to this rhythm.
For me the important thing is that I can remain in the army and luckily I get all the support possible. I'm a high ranking field officer so my duties don't include too much physical stuff anymore these days. As I have reached the age of 42, now 43, I am not allowed to make HALO and HAHO jumps anyway. The army has offered me to have my last jump at a later point this year as it's a great tradition and it's very important to me.
I got most of my motor functions back by now, and I've already exercised at the keyboard a bit during the last days. My brain allows my fingers to type relatively fast again. I need a lot of brain exercise though this year to regain all my skills.
I'm looking forward to participate again as I have the fondest memories of this place. I have to tell you though that my memory suffered a lot and I have big chunks that are completely missing. My brain suffered blood loss for several minutes and that has left damage.
Thank you for letting me be that open. I realise on a forum like this it's maybe overstepping privacy rules, not sure.
I've always been a very optimistic and positive guy and humour is a big part of me too. But I won't lie, I have very bad moments now sometimes when I don't really know anymore why I should go on.
I'm in good hands though, I have my one best army friend left and I'm living with him at the same place now. We started together in January 1992 at the age of 17 in the Swiss army. We're bonded for life.
Great to hear from you again Jason -{ Hopefully you'll get stronger every day.
My thoughts and best wishes to you. With the amount of sadness and ill health
you've had to deal with, your sense of humour I hope can help get you through.
"I've been informed that there ARE a couple of QAnon supporters who are fairly regular posters in AJB."
If you need someone to talk or a shoulder to lean on, you can count on all of us here {[]
Btw, where is Andi??
Thank you Higgins and all of you.
Andi has started his 52 week training in special reconnaissance and counter-terrorism.
That's like Germany's GSG9 force or the British SAS.
In Switzerland we call it AAD10.
And yes that's very impressive. Andi has made it big, but I'm not surprised. I'm very proud to have trained and taught him last year.
welcome back Jason
please tell us lots of jokes if it helps you recover, because I like your sense of humour too
hope you haven't forgotten you like a tv show called the Avengers, I've been missing your Avengers reviews
"The odds...99 to 1. And they don't stand a chance."
I can't even begin to fathom what you've been through, Jason.
Your absence was felt, welcome back!
Here's hoping for a speedy recovery.
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Jason,
As a recently registered poster,I wish you a full recovery and a happy future.
I too have had bypass surgery many years ago,and at my age have had many family members
and friends pass on.
You'll make it.
Regards.
Hello, my name is MI
Long term Bond fan, started my interest in James Bond with the novels and the then onto the movies. Have enjoyed all the actors to some degree, but like the films of Connery and Moore the best.
Looking forward to interacting with you all, and being a part of this forum.
Hello, my name is MI
Long term Bond fan, started my interest in James Bond with the novels and the then onto the movies. Have enjoyed all the actors to some degree, but like the films of Connery and Moore the best.
Looking forward to interacting with you all, and being a part of this forum.
Comments
For extra bulk?
Safety Regulations, in case she knocks her self out
Welcome to AJB BTW -{
Gotta be warmer than Scotland
Enjoy -{
Have a good trip and catch a few rays!
(I'm from León, not so close...)
„I’m not sure when, but I’ll be checking in on AJB again soon. In the meantime please give my regards to the group. „
Dalton - the weak and weepy Bond!
Thanks for contacting him and informing us of his reply -{
Indeed. I hope BL is doing well and I look forward to his return.
From time to time. -{
Had a good time in Spain, thanks for the thoughts above guys. The churros & chocolate were too sweet for my taste though!
Look, I'll be honest and I'm sorry if what I say will be shocking.
I'm coming back from heart attacks and subsequent open heart surgery. I lost my two best army buddies of 25 years in tragic circumstances, roughly a year ago, a loss I've never been able to fully process. Later last year my wife (we were separated on good terms) died of an aggressive form of cancer within weeks only and when she finally did her last breath in the hospital I finally broke and tried to end my life a day later. In addition my mom died as well some weeks later.
My recovery is nothing short of a miracle, or so all docs tell me. I guess having been very fit all my life helps the matter and if there is something I never have lacked then it's will-power and discipline. I'm also a survivor, literally now too.
I have a long way to go, but I am determined to make the best of my new life 2.0 as I call it.
It's a struggle and I have one very good day, then a good one and then a very bad one. I'm more or less accustomed now to this rhythm.
For me the important thing is that I can remain in the army and luckily I get all the support possible. I'm a high ranking field officer so my duties don't include too much physical stuff anymore these days. As I have reached the age of 42, now 43, I am not allowed to make HALO and HAHO jumps anyway. The army has offered me to have my last jump at a later point this year as it's a great tradition and it's very important to me.
I got most of my motor functions back by now, and I've already exercised at the keyboard a bit during the last days. My brain allows my fingers to type relatively fast again. I need a lot of brain exercise though this year to regain all my skills.
I'm looking forward to participate again as I have the fondest memories of this place. I have to tell you though that my memory suffered a lot and I have big chunks that are completely missing. My brain suffered blood loss for several minutes and that has left damage.
Thank you for letting me be that open. I realise on a forum like this it's maybe overstepping privacy rules, not sure.
I've always been a very optimistic and positive guy and humour is a big part of me too. But I won't lie, I have very bad moments now sometimes when I don't really know anymore why I should go on.
I'm in good hands though, I have my one best army friend left and I'm living with him at the same place now. We started together in January 1992 at the age of 17 in the Swiss army. We're bonded for life.
Thanks again for having me here and cheers
My thoughts and best wishes to you. With the amount of sadness and ill health
you've had to deal with, your sense of humour I hope can help get you through.
If you need someone to talk or a shoulder to lean on, you can count on all of us here {[]
Btw, where is Andi??
Dalton - the weak and weepy Bond!
Thank you Higgins and all of you.
Andi has started his 52 week training in special reconnaissance and counter-terrorism.
That's like Germany's GSG9 force or the British SAS.
In Switzerland we call it AAD10.
And yes that's very impressive. Andi has made it big, but I'm not surprised. I'm very proud to have trained and taught him last year.
please tell us lots of jokes if it helps you recover, because I like your sense of humour too
hope you haven't forgotten you like a tv show called the Avengers, I've been missing your Avengers reviews
I can't even begin to fathom what you've been through, Jason.
Your absence was felt, welcome back!
Here's hoping for a speedy recovery.
-{
As a recently registered poster,I wish you a full recovery and a happy future.
I too have had bypass surgery many years ago,and at my age have had many family members
and friends pass on.
You'll make it.
Regards.
Long term Bond fan, started my interest in James Bond with the novels and the then onto the movies. Have enjoyed all the actors to some degree, but like the films of Connery and Moore the best.
Looking forward to interacting with you all, and being a part of this forum.
MI
Welcome MI -{